Becks

Ok everyone. Its that time of year again......

New e-mail address / new msn- Van_damsel__@hotmail.co.uk

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Yeah so no fucking excuse....just do it!

I want botox.

And a nose job.

And lung tranplants.

And liposuction.

And I want to be kissed. Like I'm worth something for the first time in months.

Why do I have reoccuring dreams about running away from a giant?
And why is it always different in one way or another.

Been ill for 3 weeks.
Kinda had enough. To the point of exhaustion.
I'm meant to rest but who the fuck is going to rest for 3 weeks.

Bleugh. Dont know what else to say other than I wish I had never met Terry. I wouldnt have got depressed and my immunities wouldnt have fucked up and I wouldnt have been so ill.
I need to start taking my prosac again. Mood swings are terrible and I'm wanting to be violent.

Im shitting myself about seeing him again.

Have a survey cuz I'm bored.

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Becks
Birthday:	07/12
Birthplace:	Bath, UK
Current Location:	Bath, UK
Eye Color:	Brown
Hair Color:	Black/brown/red....soon to be pink/black.
Height:	5ft7
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Righty
Your Heritage:	West Indian/Italian/Scottish/Welsh/English
The Shoes You Wore Today:	None. I've just got out of bed
Your Weakness:	A pretty face and giving people second chances
Your Fears:	Being alone. Getting fat. Getting ugly.
Your Perfect Pizza:	Mushrooms, ham, pineapple...LOADS OF CHEESE
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Get over T
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	I'm fine. Yourself?
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Go back to sleep and ignore whatever it is you gotta do
Your Best Physical Feature:	Tits
Your Bedtime:	Anytime
Your Most Missed Memory:	I dont miss anything
Pepsi or Coke:	Diet coke...normal makes my teeth feel fuzzy
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Burger King...though neither if I had the choice
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	I'm fucked if I know
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Both
Cappuccino or Coffee:	I hate coffee....cappachino...but I'd throw it away
Do you Smoke:	Yes
Do you Swear:	Yeah
Do you Sing:	Yes, but not that well since I ruined my lungs
Do you Shower Daily:	No. Every other day and bath every other
Have you Been in Love:	Yeah but love is overrated and full of shit
Do you want to go to College:	I've been, left and concidering going again
Do you want to get Married:	Yeah. In ivory and gold...but it aint gonna happen
Do you belive in yourself:	no. Apart from me being the master of blagging
Do you get Motion Sickness:	No. Only in the back of cars if its hot
Do you think you are Attractive:	Yeah. I'm not blind. But I'm nothing special.
Are you a Health Freak:	Far from it
Do you get along with your Parents:	Sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Love them
Do you play an Instrument:	Guitar for 4 years and failed miserably
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Yes loads
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes loads
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	yes loads
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	No. Not one
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	We dont have Malls in Bath
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	I hate Oreo's
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes indeed. Sushi is luff
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	try the past 3 months
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Nope.
Ever been Drunk:	Yes
Ever been called a Tease:	Yep but only when I do it on purpose
Ever been Beaten up:	By an ex other than that, I do the beating
Ever Shoplifted:	Hahahahaha. Yeah.
How do you want to Die:	thats a bit morbid. Just do it. Dont talk about it
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	photographer or something
What country would you most like to Visit:	Try continent - Asia.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue/green
Favourite Hair Color:	black/brown
Short or Long Hair:	either
Height:	5ft 10 plus.
Weight:	Whatever
Best Clothing Style:	cute, baggy and sexy. Mwah
Number of Drugs I have taken:	not as many as my ex thats for sure
Number of CDs I own:	as many as you want
Number of Piercings:	I like facial piercings
Number of Tattoos:	A couple....please
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	I dunno. You cant chose that in a guy
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

I like playing music twice as fast as it should be. Songs dont drag on.

I pushed the cyst behind my ear....to my neck, and now I have a cyst in my neck, on a nerve.
I am most unimpressed.

My Dad has an "addictive" nature to say the least.
( Aladdins cave of technology )
Matt and Emma are coming over for mooovie goodness...Emma's bringing DVD's. I dont know if she should have bothered. Lol.

DOWNLOAD TICKETS ARE HERE!!!!

That means...I officially get to see....
System of a Down
Killswitch Engage
Mudvayne
Black Sabbath (hehe)
Biffy Clyro
Motorhead
Billy Idol

and loads of emo bollocks!

Whey!

Not well at all. Got such a high temperature that I'm really really uncomfortable. And headache....and stuff.
Blah. I wanna feel better.

Fucking RAGH.

I've waited 6 months to get this appointment.
I woke up at 7, walked to the cash point and my cheque hasnt cleared.
This means I cant get to my appointment with the Adult Theraputic Input Service and I'm just about ready to go fucking mental.
And I still dont have any cigarettes.

:(

Love me.

Finally...for the first time in years I have had a sensible, honest, open minded conversation with a manabout sex, foreplay and faking it.
I so badly needed it.

Its been ages since I've had a male voice about.

I feel very much refreshed and vented.

*sigh*

I'm in luff!!!!!!!

*swoon*

( Bang Bang Bang - new hair )

*smiles*

Been cheered up....this guy said I should be his girlfriend....

:D
http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=821145&friendName=Eros%20is%20mumXcore%204%20lyfe&Mytoken=20050525014241

Yes puuurrrlease!!! NOW NOW NOW NOW. GIMMEE GIMMEE GIMMEE

Went to doctors. Have chest infection and temperature and by the looks of it today...an ear infection.

Slept for 15 hours last night. Woke up this morning to the sound of squacking, walked down stairs to see a blackbird flying around being chased by Neo.
Little bugger.
I hadnt seen him for 8 days so it was a present for me...but I'd have prefered it if he had at least broken its wing or something. It just means the poor things gonna be alive for longer before dying of shock or whatever. After 30 minutes of chasing it round the house I managed to get in in the shoe rack, took it outside and it darted straight off.

Havent taken a picture of my hair yet. Emma did the other day but it may be a while before its developed.

Just cant be bothered.

Feeling bummed but I dont really care right now.

Blagh. Dispondent and all that bollocks.

I think I'm being time warped back to the 80's.
I keep doing my hair/makeup ridiculously New Romantic.

Like at the moment, I've twisted my hair into a bun but theres this tiny flick of hair that keeps falling loose.
I cant help it.

Example:

It all started Friday when I dressed up in the top hat and tails and stuff. :s

I keep choking till I puke.
Its gross.

See you next week people.

xxx

Haha.
Well I do launch Miff across the room....

and Hellen....secrets out ;D

If ever you feel slightly down on ourself, or high on yourself or you just need to be taken down a peg or two....

just remember, you're one in billions.

Theres always someone out there whos prettier than you.
Smarter at the things you're smart at.
Better at the things you're best at.

Theres always someone whos hair looks better than you.
Theres always someone who could come along and steal your partner away from you.

And vice versa....

theres always someone whos uglier.
Worse than you.
Stupider than you.

So dont ever think for one second you're better/worse than anybody else.

Truth is we're all shit.

Fill me in on your new vision
Wake me up with indecision
Help me trust your mighty wisdom
Yes I eat cow - I am not proud.

Show me how you question, question
Lead the way to my temptations
Take my hand and keep it clean
Yes I eat cow - I am not proud.

Is he in an easychair?
Poop as hard as a rock.
I don't like you anyway
Seal it in a box

I'm new
Now you

Fill me in on your new vision
Wake me up with indecision
Help me trust your mighty wisdom
Yes I eat cow - I am not proud.

Show me how you question, question
Lead the way to my temptations
Take my hand and keep it clean
Yes I eat cow - I am not proud.

Is he in an easychair?
Poop as hard as rock.
I don't like you anyway
Seal it in a box

I'm new
Now you

I'm new
Now you

Eek.
I'm leaving soon.

Really really really ill.

The "art/paint specialist" fucking told me to use the wrong paints on my wellies so that paint wont actually dry....at all...which is really really fucking me off.
So now I have the problem of wet enamel spray on my wellies.

Erm....what else....nothign else.
I'm just dying.
And confused.

And I keep getting morning sickness which makes me feel like I'm pregnant...and I shouldnt be...although....I technically could be about 3 months with Terry....but I doubt it, because my stomaches at its flattest.

I just wanted to share my scraggy stuck up smelly fucker of a cat with you all.

He stinks of human piss today and its vile. Got caught out in the rain.


Not to mention he had the whole garden in his tail, including a mini slug....this is what I pulled out of it....


And this was his reaction after clamping his teeth on my hand. He was so not impressed.